What in the World am I thinking?
I started a Vision wall. This means I have placed things in front of my desk, on the wall, which would provoke me to focus on the fact that my life has so much more to offer than my daily routines.
I placed several framed articles, (fortunately/unfortunately about myself) including my first book and I hung them around a really cool shelf I found at a garage sale, that takes the shape of a lion. On the shelf are pictures of my deceased daddy. In one picture, he is holding his Bible and declaring another Spirit filled powerful sermon, I am certain.
In my mind, when I look up at my wall, this encourages me to keep pressing forward to try and do the best in my pursuits for reaching the World for the Kingdom of God. My daddy was a preacher and that makes me a PK=Preacher's Kid. For me, it was always an honor and finally, I take it very serious. I've got stuff to do.
Probably much like many of 'us'-- our dads may have dealt with us by loving force and with much pleading toward God, to get us to open our eyes to the Truth. I am sure my dad always felt I was not fully living my potential. I am sure at times I wasn't.
Then there are some dads who are just simply not involved in their children's lives. This was the case with my husband. Because of our polar opposite upbringing it actually has reflected at times negatively on our communication and even our emotional securities. But, with the aid I had been blessed with by being optimistic about life, I must remember I was the more fortunate one in my rearing and 'consider the source.'
It's a good thing that God has no favor in showing His great love to us, because my husband could be so deep in depression on many occasions because of his upbringing. Instead, he has turned that negative into being a better dad to his own two grown kids, because of his misfortune. He built them a business which my husband has retired from and they now run. It's a good thing my Charlie found Jesus.
For years after my first and only divorce my dear daddy tried to encourage me to focus more on what was important. And with daddy, Jesus was the most important thing.
It wasn't until the past ten years or so, while in my present marriage that I began truly seeking what I was actually born to do.
I was a hairdresser for 26 years. (still 'do' 3 widows every Friday)
I always wanted to be like a "Dear Abby" in a ministerial sort of way--and help become a mender of broken hearts.
I had a lot of practice as a hairdresser/counselor. I truly wondered at times if I had a sign hanging outside the front of the Salon--Counselor! On a number of occasions, they just wanted to talk. I listened. I also, 'preached'.
Do you question what it is you are suppose to be doing because you are stuck in a place that you are not motivated or engaged in, with that job/marriage/business or 'calling'?
Well, I encourage you to make up your mind to focus on putting something before you that certainly interest you, but will actually become something that helps someone else, more dominantly than you. It was within the last two years of my ten year solace, because of my divorce, I posted a 5x7 hand written embossed paper on my front door where I could see it every time I went to open and close the door. The inscription were these words, which I wrote: "I want a partnership between equals for the purpose of Spiritual growth." I did not waver in what I knew I needed, and ultimately got what I had envisioned. My husband and I are going into our tenth year of marriage. Has it been a bed of blooming roses? Of course not, that's why they are ROSES, they've got to have thrones.
Presently: My desire is to give a certain amount of money to a ministry in Honduras and I wrote that amount down on a 9x6 piece of paper and hung it on that Vision wall, with scotch tape and mounted to one of my picture frames. I am hoping soon this vision will happen as it is not esthetically classy to my decor.
I have another paper up on that wall that tells me for sure I am headed in the right direction.
I've got my sights set on 3 mission trips, one in which I am leading the team, to India. The other two places are Honduras and Nepal. All to be a part of something outside of myself.
Last but not least, I have a very elaborate "thank you" framed from my niece and namesake Holly Knox Brookhouser, and the poignant line in her note to me are the words which encourages me the most, when I cannot seem to care about my 'successes'. A portion of her words written are this; "I am amazed at your open heart"....
If nothing else on that wall keeps me going besides my sweet daddy who would relish in my journey thus far, is to know that someone is watching me who saw me and hopefully remains to see me with an open heart who wants to 'do' for people as I was privileged to do for her.
See, Visions are all different for various people, and if your Vision is centered to excel in life, maybe you should see it through the eyes of someone who directly believes you are qualified. Remember, through the good and the bad on your way to personal accomplishments in fulfilling your Vision; Consider the Source.
