Bureaucratic procedures are
not my gift. I would love to pretend I am good at many things, but I know my
limitations and I am best at creativity!!
So yesterday, I sat with
tears in my eyes, at my kitchen counter with many notes in front of me, as I
gathered my thoughts before talking to the guy named Mark, at the freight
forwarding company in Washington, D.C., I paused in contemplation. At that very
moment I felt complete inadequacy, about many things concerning this very important
process. I just sat and starred. (Gathering all the logistics for the shipping
container, which will leave the end of May is a TON of paperwork.)
Anyway…my sweet husband, who
has owned several businesses, is very good at executive decisions, therefore he
knows how to execute his ideas. He’s a wiz when it comes to business. However,
yesterday, he walks up from the basement, from working on a draft that needs
CREATIVITY and he says; “I can’t do this.” And with the most forlorn look on
his face, which I haven’t seen since his son had a heart attack at age 39! I asked; “Honey, what’s wrong?” He said;
“I’ve got to come up with a creative idea for this event and I’m just not creative.”
I starred at him to see if he
could tell that my face was as forlorn as his because of the insufficient
position I was stewing in! (Women are more sensitive. Haha.)
I began to laugh at the role
reversal, concerning our lives. He retired from owner/executive position in 2011,
so he really doesn’t need to put himself in this sort of stress, but something
is calling both of us to a much deeper and broader place in our lives than we
have ever been, especially in our 11 years of marriage. I choose to get myself involved
in many things which are sometimes unfamiliar areas and can also be so challenging
to me that I find myself shaking my head in disbelief that I even care at all.
But it’s the PULL that
neither of us can explain. We want to be a part of something bigger than the
both of us.
I said, “Honey, I can do
creative for you, it’s who I am. But, could you help me formulate this whole
conversation with this governmental issue?”
He said; “No problem, that’s
nothing.”
I said; “That’s how I feel
about strategizing your creative idea for your event!”
WE began to laugh. I cried
and laughed at the same time, because it is so obvious that God is stretching us!
What I noticed most in this
was unification, which is why I am choosing to write about it now. I saw true
unity taking place, for both Charlie and I. For an executive mind, I can’t
imagine how difficult it is to relate to a creative off the wall, mind like
mine!
For the two of us to work on
something together, it’s very rare and has hardly been a part of our daily agenda’s.
I am not saying we are not supportive of each other. That would be far-fetched.
It’s just strange that right now, we are being ‘forced’ to be more involved in
each other’s calendar on a regular basis. That is rare for us. We are both very
independent.
We laughed at the turn of the
timetable and we found peace in knowing we purposely had each other’s back and
there was no need to stress because together we will fix it!
